Hello, World

Hi,


Not sure if anyone still checks out this blog. But in case anyone's wondering, Together Called is NOT dead. I do not, and have never had the intention of shutting down this blog, despite my absence in this space.


Things just happened, one after another. Hope to share them eventually one day. Basically, Life* just happened. Both the good, and the very bad.


Today, I was thrown off my high horse and reminded that I am absolutely powerless without God in my Life. I really, really need him. More than ever. And sometimes, I wonder if He'll take me back even if I've strayed but He always does. I guess I find it harder to grasp the concept of Grace, till this day, than most people. 


I have a deep aching and heaviness in my heart that's resurfaced. It is one of those things that absolutely leaves me shattered and helpless. The worst thing is that this time around, I can't turn to any of my friends or loved ones, for it is a path that I need to walk myself. I know I shouldn't feel alone, because "God is with me" but I can't help it.


It's really hard to be happy and at peace of the future when nothing's looking bright, not even close. And I'm not talking about work prospects of PR applications. I guess this is where Jesus comes in. I don't know when this will ever end, and I don't want to think about Hope or the future because it's so bleak.


I'm overcome with sadness and I really need my Saviour, please... Just want it all to go away but I know that's not how things work. Anyway, I apologise for the solemn and dreadful tone of this post but I'm very thankful that I have this blog. That I don't need to pretend to smile to anyone or keep a "cheerful" conversation going despite the storm that I'm truly feeling in my heart. 


I feel even more sad right now because I know that when I wake up tomorrow, nothing's changed or the situation might have gotten worse, for that matter. Not looking forward to sleep, not looking forward to waking up. Not looking forward to anything.


Hope you're all doing better than me.




Thanks,
Winston.