Stay strong, kid.

Went in today with my friend to pick up my IELTS results. This would have been the third time I took this exam this year to try and apply for PR. Turns out, I did get the required score... Again.

There's no point thinking about why I keep missing the mark. Because whatever you can think of, I'm sure it's gone through my head more than a thousand times already. My faith was tested once again as I received this news this morning.

It's the age old question, isn't it? "Why should I hold hope when it could lead to bigger disappointment?". But I know better that it really depends on what I hold hope for, and whether or not it's in line with what God has for me. Because the plans I make for myself can be blown away in just a second, but the plans God has for me is as strong and indestructible as a Diamond (recalling a conversation I had with my bro, Chris)

See, I know how to "have faith" in "theory", but a lot of times it's really hard to put it into practice. Anyone know what I'm talking about here? We all know the "textbook" answers to Life* but it's really easier said than done.

Whatever it is, I'm so thankful to my Mum for being my rock. I'm so glad that she is able to understand and comfort me like no one that I know. Thank you, Mum. And she's absolutely right. I really do need learn to let go, and take things as they come.

Because God's plans are not revealed all at once. Faith in God is all about taking it one step at a time, each and every day.

I guess you can say that right now, I'm relearning everything that I've learned about Faith in the past... Again. This cycle never ends, but so what?

Though there are days when I feel defeated, but I know that this is what the Enemy wants me to think. So don't worry, I'll be fine because I KNOW that these thoughts are not from my God, and by His strength, I will prevail.

Hope you're all learning to stay strong no matter what. Seriously.

Love you all,
Winston.