I choose: Life*

Spent two nights trying to write up this post and after looking at the final draft, I realised that there were still a lot of negativity and darkness in the things that I wrote.

In the end, it was just too much, I thought. So I decided to scrap all of it. This blog has seen too much of thoughts with sadness or death for too long, seriously. It's time for me to hit the restart button and begin a new life starting today. Because if I don't hold hope now, I know that I really am going to die.

But that's really okay, because "faith not challenged is not faith at all".

Though I don't know how I'm going to get out of this spiritual depression or where to go from here, I'll just take it the only way I know how to -- that is one step at a time.

This is why I choose to start by believing that Jesus will save me. That alone is the hope I choose to carry. And how can something like that bring nothing but Life*.

Besides that, I really just want to apply what I've learned and taken away from the camp in as many areas of my life as I can.

Which is to:

1. ENGAGE

- the world, its people and situations in Life and not just live aimlessly by going through the motions

2. EMBRACE

- by actively showing the same LOVE of Christ that died for me to every person and situation in Life

3. EMPOWER

- every person that I come across by reminding them that they have so much more in them and they are created to be EXTRA ordinary people

Because I believe with all my heart that every single choice I make can steer me into the direction to be an EXTRA ordinary person for God. We've got enough normal and ordinary people around already anyway.

What this world really needs now is more people who understand the very will and heart of God. I choose to fall in that category. No way am I going to continue to live this life being known as just another guy.

So please don't worry about me because I'm being completely honest when I say that I am fine. Every one goes through phases and I believe that what I'm going through too will only be for a season.

After all, life is hard as it is. But at the end of the day, one can only Hope, right???? My Jesus will come and rescue me. So let it be.

Amen.